Putting up a front and hiding her mental illness from her classmates is going to be the hardest thing high schooler Natalie Cordova has ever done. It’s her senior year, and she’s just been selected to present her artwork at a prestigious show. With the stress of performing on her shoulders, it doesn’t help when Natalie notices a boy who makes her heart leap. And then there’s fellow student Ella, who confronts Natalie about her summer car “accident” and pressures her into caring for the world’s ugliest dog. Now Natalie finds herself juggling all kinds of feels and responsibilities. Surely her newly prescribed medication is to blame for the funk she finds herself in. But as Natalie’s plan to self-treat unravels, so does the perfect façade she’s been painting for everyone else.
Written from experience, this heartfelt and candid contemporary YA novel explores the stigma surrounding mental illness and offers an uplifting narrative of resilience.
*Includes a downloadable PDF of helpful resources from the book, for if you or someone you know is in crisis
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- ISBN: 9780593669624
- File size: 266990 KB
- Duration: 09:16:13
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- English
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Publisher's Weekly
August 8, 2022
High school senior Natalie Cardova, an artist, is used to keeping secrets. Most of them are little ones, such as replacing her brother’s beta fish with a new one so he wouldn’t find out that it died. But she’s also hiding one big personal truth: following an attempted suicide, she was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Convinced that “appearances are everything,” her mother insists that no one can know about Natalie’s BPD, because it will tank her friendships and ruin her shot at both becoming Homecoming queen and receiving scholarships to art school. But as Natalie juggles keeping her secret, a budding romance with sweet and disarming Ty, and an upcoming trip to Paris to participate in a prestigious art exhibition, she forgoes her medication: “I am not sick. Medications are for sick people,” she asserts. Even as she struggles to be emotionally vulnerable—both with herself and Ty—Natalie’s sharply drawn narrative voice provides levity and good humor. Debut author Webb draws from her own experience living with BPD to deliver a blistering portrayal of one teen’s attempts to seem “normal enough” while managing a mental disorder—and the stigma and stereotypes that often accompany it—amid increasingly overwhelming life changes. Most characters cue as white. Ages 14–up. Agent: Emily Keyes, Fuse Literary.
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